Knowing my root: What I have the drive for
I have an Undefined Root Center, meaning I move through life at my own pace. My natural state is relaxed and unbothered. It is only when I am around people with Defined Root Centers (60% of the population) that I absorb their adrenalized energy and stress and AMPLIFY it.
As someone who has always felt incredibly overstimulated by crowds, this makes perfect sense.
All my questions about why I hated being in large groups or why the idea of going to a music festival made my skin crawl were finally answered. I could take a huge sigh of relief and accept that this is part of who I am, and THAT’S OKAY. Too many people = too much energy, which means I am overwhelmed and overstimulated.
I used to work in the public school system in the United States, and I remember making my hour commute home in complete silence because just being in a building with so much energy overwhelmed my senses. I used to tell my partners to please not talk to me after work. I needed space and time to decompress.
I also work in spurts. While some spurts are five hours, others may be 30 minutes. Learning about my Undefined Root Center made me realize that this wasn’t so much about attention span but my natural pace and inconsistent drive. While my work pace and schedule would be my demise in a 9-5 corporate office, it’s ideal for me as a self-employed person who decides her schedule. When I am on, I am on and can accomplish in two hours what it may take someone else twelve. I am not kidding. This is who I am, and I have learned to accept it.
Although my drive is incredibly inconsistent, I have three activated gates in my Root Center that show me exactly what my drive is meant for and how to utilize it appropriately. I low-key LOVE the Root Center gifts that I have, so I'm going to take a moment to brag about them.
For starters I have Gate 38 Activated not only once but FOUR times in my Human Design Chart. What does this mean? It means I am a GOD D*AMN FIGHTER. I am built to tackle the hard stuff, not back down, and not give up no matter how dismal things look. Fighting for my life, my mental health, my desires, and my dreams comes almost as naturally as breathing to me. There have been so many times in my life when I have been tested and pushed to the brink of madness. Often, when people hear my life story up to this point, a number look at me stunned and say, “It’s amazing that you not only survived but came out on the other side even better. How the hell were you able to do that?” And before learning Human Design, I would shrug and say, “I honestly don’t know. It’s just who I am”. But now I know that while yes, it is who I am, it is also one of my most prominent gifts. Siri, please play “Fighter” by Christina Aguilera.
To add to this feist, I also have Gates 58 and 60 activated. Gate 58 means I am naturally able to look around and see how things can be better. And this applies to EVERYTHING. Do I walk into an Airbnb and immediately assess what kitchenware is missing or notice how some towel hooks by the door to the beach might be beneficial? You better believe I do! On more than just a handful of occasions, I have thought about becoming an Airbnb consultant who would stay in your rental and then report back on what could be done differently. “Taking out those top cabinets and installing floating shelves would add character and open up this space” is a sentence that I know Kyle is tired of hearing. It’s a gift, and it’s dope and annoying at the time. While everyone is blissing out about how fantastic everything is, I’m often keeping a running list of all the things lacking and how everything can be leveled up.
Gate 60 means I have zero tolerance for roadblocks. Nothing holds me back, and nothing stops me. Once I’ve made up my mind, it’s over. Bring on the challenges, baby, and I’ll show you exactly how we’re going to blast past them. It’s no wonder I’ve manifested everything I’ve wanted. Telling me it can’t be done only fuels my fire.
So, while I might not have a consistent drive to do just anything, I EXCEL at fighting for what I want, jumping over roadblocks like a gold medal-winning hurdler, and instantly knowing how everything can be made EVEN better. These are the things I have energy for. These are the gifts that propel me forward in life.
My ongoing practice: to accept that my pace is different and I amplify the energy around me. To understand that my natural state is relaxed and unbothered, but if a fight needs to be had, a hurdle taunts me with its bullsh*t, or an Airbnb doesn’t have a corkscrew, you best believe I’ve got the energy to do what I need to do. This practice only exists because I took the time to learn myself through Human Design.
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